It’s not where… It’s love

I am sitting here finding it hard to focus and find the motivation to get work done. I am still pursuing my efforts of support raising for my internship with Campus Crusade for Christ. I have quite a bit left to raise and only 20 days left to do it. In this time I am also keeping in the back of my mind what I will do if I am unable to raise my support.

What I truly desire is to go back to BG and work full-time with Crusade. I have been struggling lately with the reality that I may not be able to raise my support… then what? I am not sure.

God has been doing what He does really well and has met me right where I am during this. I have been reminded that it isn’t about where I am or what ministry I am working for. He cares that I love Him and show others His love… wherever I am.

If I can ask, whoever reads my blog, to please keep me in your prayers for the next couple weeks as I work to raise the rest of the support I need. Ask the Lord would raise up generous people who want to give back to Him and help support my ministry. Also, I am seeking direction from the Lord if this is not His plan for me.

Thank you for your support and prayers! I will keep y’all posted.


The Man I Prayed For

I found this poem on one of my favorite blogs, Young Ladies Christian Fellowship. I often find myself going to this blog when I am looking for encouragement. I was moved to tears reading this poem that one of the bloggers decided to post for readers who are still waiting on their man. Thank you YLCF! I have a restored hope and a prayer that I can carry with me.

Dear God, I prayed, all unafraid,
(as we’re inclined to do)
I do not need a handsome man
But let him be like You;
I do not need one big and tall
Nor need he be some genius
Or wealthy, Lord, at all;
But let his head be high, dear God,
And let his eye be clear,
His shoulders straight,
Whate’er his state
Whate’er his earthly sphere;
And let his face have character,
A ruggedness of soul,
And let his whole life show,
Dear God,
A singleness of goal;
That when he comes
(as he will come)
With quiet eyes aglow
I’ll understand that he’s the man
I prayed for long ago.

Ruth Bell, 1939 Published in Never Let it End: Poems of a Lifelong Love

Lifelong Valentines

True love never dies, it only gets stronger with time.

In honor of Valentine’s Day, I thought it would be nice to dedicate a post to my parents. I do not have a Valentine this year, but I thought that instead of over looking the Hallmark holiday, I would celebrate someone else’s love story. My dad proposed to my mom on Valentine’s Day 26 years ago and they are still very much in love. They have done an amazing job raising me and my two brothers. It is evident in our character and in how we treat one another. Their love for each other has given me hope that I will one day find love and spend forever with someone who loves me as much as my dad loves my mom. So, here’s to you, Mom and Dad! May your love for one another continue to grow and flourish for years to come. Let’s be honest, I would not be here if it were not for you guys!

More Beautiful You

More Beautiful You by Jonny Diaz (click to listen)

Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn’t straight her body isn’t fake
And she’s always felt overweight

Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don’t buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty-one the things that you’ve already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you’ve got a man but he’s got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead

Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there’s a man whose love is true
And he’ll treat you like the jewel you are


So turn around you’re not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It’s not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who’s strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you’ll see through the eyes of a little girl



But I can promise you there’s a man whose love is true
And he’ll treat you like the jewel you are
That’s God, Ladies!

Her Heart Cries Out

I found this poem on a blog that I view daily, Young Ladies Christian Fellowship. The women who write posts for the blog have inspired me greatly in the past year. Their writing is pure and from God.

I find this poem beautiful. It speaks so clearly to me. Although the poet seems desperate for her love as many women are, we have to remember that God is our first love and His love is enough!! His love is the biggest, the best, and the most faithful. I hope all of the single women who read my blog or YLCF find this post encouraging in that you will wait for the one God has for you. In the mean time AND when you do find THE one, remember God loved you first…


Her Heart Cries Out
By: Harmony Conjurske

I want one, she cried,
I need one today,
I can’t be denied,
Whatever you say.

These men that I see,
They cause so much pain.
There’s not one for me,
I’m almost insane.

They come in and out,
They go here and there
They wander about,
They’re just everywhere.

With sad weary eyes
I watch and I pine-
If one of these guys
Could only be mine.

They’re so big and strong,
They’re just what I need,
So come right along,
I sigh and I plead.

Sometimes for a while
They notice I’m there,
They’ll give me a smile,
Or just a deep stare.

But then all to fast
They move on their way.
These moments don’t last,
They didn’t come to stay.

They broke my poor heart-
These wonderful men-
They shot in their dart
And left me again.

Can they even see,
Do they not yet know,
The deep misery
They cause when they go?

I only want one
That’s all that I ask
Come give me some fun,
It’s not a hard task.

I’m pretty and sweet
I’ve kept myself pure.
I’d feel so complete,
So loved and secure.

They don’t seem to hear
My heart-breaking cry,
They drive in their spear,
And then go on by.

Perhaps it could be
He hasn’t come yet,
The one that’s for me
I might not have met.

I say as I weep,
He’s out there somewhere,
I pray, God, you’d keep
Him in your good care.

You must have a plan,
I will wait and see.
I know that you can
Bring one just for me!

The man that I need
Will find me some day
I cry, as I plead,
Come over my way.

I feel a great ache,
My life is so numb,
I fear it will break,
If you do not come.

Wherever you are,
Whatever you do,
I’ll be your bright star,
I’m waiting for you.

I AM waiting for you…

WHGBSTYL Sunday: The greatest way to say “I love you”

God continues to teach me more and more about the woman I am becoming. I am so thankful for that. I continue to grow stronger as a person and closer in my relationship with Him. Wow… It’s overwhelming- the power of God. We can go through something awful and come out on the other side rejoicing in the majesty of our creator. Even through realllly difficult times. It literally takes my breath away just thinking about it.

Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing… Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him. -James 1:2-4, 12

I have learned through a rather unfortunate circumstance that the greatest way to say “I love you” is through sacrifice. We all make sacrifices in life. Daily. Some big, some small. But when they are done for the glory of God, size is not important. Love becomes the focus.

The sacrifices I make in my life for God usually come to my attention when I am listening closely to Him. Whether it involves my time, my money, my relationships, etc. God points me in the direction of what I am to do with these things. I am so grateful to hear this from God. It makes me a better person… Thank you God!

Some sacrifices may hurt whether it be my wallet or my heart, but nothing goes unnoticed by God. God will bless those who give up things that are important to them. I am reminded by the scripture in Genesis 22 when Abraham is called by God to sacrifice his only son. If you are not familiar with this passage, Abraham takes his son to a mountain to sacrifice (kill) him, for God called him to do this. Abraham obeyed God and when he was about to kill his son God stopped him. God had seen that Abraham feared Him and gave him back his son.

15And the angel of the LORD called to Abraham a second time from heaven 16and said, “By myself I have sworn, declares the LORD, because you have done this and have not withheld your son, your only son, 17I will surely bless you, and I will surely multiply your offspring as the stars of heaven and as the sand that is on the seashore. And your offspring shall possess the gate of his enemies, 18and in your offspring shall all the nations of the earth be blessed, because you have obeyed my voice.”

Obey God’s voice and you too will be blessed. I pray that for everyone. If God wants to strip you from the things you are closest to, let Him. He will show you just how amazing He is.

(This was an emotionally difficult post to write. I hope it encouraged someone… ) 

WHGBSTYL Sunday: God is love

Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us. -1 John 4:7-12

Unfortunately, I do not have a lot of time to write as much as I would like to right now… Today has been a busy day and I have to plan tonight for a camp my mom and I are putting on this week for first and second graders. However, I wanted to write a “WHGBSTYL Sunday” post because I feel God has shared something very important with me today. I attended church today- my home church- where I go when I am at school. I woke up early and drove two and a half hours north! Two very dear friends of mine are moving next week and I wanted to say goodbye to them before they left. Anyways, the pastor preached about “Living a Life of Love.” I was so intrigued! I felt like I was realizing all over again how incredible and amazing and CRAZY God’s love for me, for you, for the world really is!

I feel seriously challenged by the scripture that was shared during the sermon. “Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.” It almost seems impossible to love my neighbors, my brothers, my sisters, and my enemies as God loves them. But what an incredible thing to strive for! I want to be more like Christ everyday. The more I get to know Him and see Him moving in my life and in those around me, the more like Him I want to become… What has God been saying to YOU lately?

A Wonderful Reminder

During my time in the Word today, I came across this passage that served as a wonderful reminder to me. Especially in the present time (the economic situation and the sinful fallen world) it is good to remember the things this passage teaches. To be sober-minded and self-controlled. To love one another. To show hospitality. To use our God-given gifts. Even in these difficult times we must remember who is in control and who is the one we are to trust and have faith in- God. Have faith and trust in Him!

The end of all things is at hand; therefore be self-controlled and sober-minded for the sake of your prayers. Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins. Show hospitality to one another without grumbling. As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God’s varied grace: whoever speaks, as one who speaks oracles of God; whoever serves, as one who serves by the strength that God supplies—in order that in everything God may be glorified through Jesus Christ. To him belong glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen. -1 Peter 4:7-11

WHGBSTYL Sunday: Finding our security in God

I have wrote one or two posts about having insecurities… I know that I have mentioned a few. God has done so much work in this area of my life over the course of the past few months it’s incredible! This week, God has been telling me very clearly to find my security in Him. Although I feel I understood this and have for a while, He stressed the fact that I am not to find my security in others or objects. God is the one I am to rely on for my love, my comfort, my protection, my affection, my everything. Putting the pressure on others or looking to objects to provide those things for me is silly. God is the one I am to lean on. The one I am to look to. He is the one that matters. I am here living my life for Him- looking to eternity in Heaven with Him!

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. -John 14:27

Thank you God. You never fail to teach me something. You find where I am weak and help me to become stronger.